Every other weekend I am tasked with cleaning my father's mother's home with my mother. To explain why I refer to her as such is that my mother and father have been separated since I was five months old. My father has taken to a habit of bad behavior acting as if the world is out to get him in one fashion or another and likes to cut off communication with family members who he believes have turned against him. The first time he ventured off on a bout of self-pity, he even cut off communication with me, his child at a time in my life which was crucial to my emotional development. His mother was never informed of the time I was stalked which was also the time he disappeared first. This lack of knowledge and her own self-loathing has led her to accuse me of not trying to communicate with my father this time when he is a full-fledged adult in his late 40's and I am a full-fledged adult in my early 20's we each are able to make our own decisions and they should be respected at face value. His mother does not see it in that way and has accused me of a lack of trying, yet she does not accuse him of such. She belittles my decisions to be a self-sufficient individual that does not need the negativity of my father in my life and that is something that causes my deepest, lowest depth of misery. Remember that communication is a two-way street and if one is not trying it can be a fruitless effort that could be better used doing something else, such as building on oneself as a person. The only one you will ever be able to control is yourself and that is something that not all have realized just yet.
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What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
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