Question #28: Who are your heroes in real life?

Truthfully I don't know how to answer this question. I could put down my mother and my family to get it over with but that wouldn't be enough. The people that I find to be heroes in my life are those that I see trying and not giving up, the ones that I see taking on more than they ever thought that they could and failing over and over until they succeed. Anyone can be a hero and honestly I believe everyone is one in some way or form to at least one person that knows them.

I live surrounded by heroes because each and every person I encounter pushes me to do better even if they don't realize it. I live my life to make life better for others, I live to make the world a better place in each and every thing I do. I see everyone as a hero whether they are teaching me a lesson of what I don't want to be doing in life or they show me a new way to see something. Learn from others and life can be so much better, the only person that can decide how you react to those things is yourself.
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Who are your heroes in real life?

Question #27: Which historical figure do you most identify with?

The historical figure I most identify with is not well known and I only learned about her when I was in the peak of my fascination with pirates. Although I disagree with her looting and pillaging there were some admirable traits she had. Ching Shih is the historical figure I most identify with.

I started to do research on her before I started college about 4 years ago and she ended up turning into my famous person speech for my speech class. I spoke on her treatment of women captives and the laws she had put in place for her fleet to protect them. I also spoke on her impressive military prowess and business practices as I had been going into business myself. She ruled over 70,000 pirates during her time which is around the same amount of people currently residing within my hometown. I have been placed in leadership opportunities just like she has and I craved power, now I like to observe others and give suggestions from behind the scenes as I let others take on more. If I feel I need to step up and do more I will.

If you want to read more on her please follow the link below.

https://www.ancient-origins.net/history-famous-people/ching-shih-prostitute-pirate-lord-002582

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Which historical figure do you most identify with?

How?

Sometimes I ask myself this question. How? How do I do things? How am I able to complete tasks? How am I able to sleep at night? How am I able to be the person that I am?

Over the unexpected hiatus, I have done the following things:

1. Ran a fundraiser for my club
2. Had a meeting with the president of the board of directors for my internship
3. Assisted with a fundraiser for a nonprofit organization
4. Submitted a speech for review to apply for being the student speaker at the Spring 2019 graduation ceremony
5. Auditioned to be the student speaker at my graduation ceremony and was chosen
6. Took pictures of the museum I am interning at for the new website and for social media
7. Went to an ice cream place and asked for recommendations and was not disappointed
8. Went to the National Leadership Conference for Business Professionals of America
9. Became certified in Microsoft Office: Word 2016 through a competition
10. Was sunburnt to the point of shaking from pain for two days and then being unbearably itchy
11. Placed in the top ten for the events I competed in for the National Leadership Conference
12. Completed two sets of minutes for meetings that I was not present at
13. Assisted students in classes where I had procrastinated to the point of being afraid I would fail
14. Assisted students in classes I did not previously take
15. Allowed a complete stranger to use one of my previous projects as an example
16. Allowed a classmate to use a rough draft of a project as an example
17. Was emailed by the nonprofit I assisted for the fundraiser to apply for a marketing position
18. Finished a marketing plan for a business I wish to begin in the future
19. Assisted in the set up of the graduation ceremony
20. Had a fancy dinner with the speakers for the graduation ceremony
21. Spoke at my commencement ceremony as the student speaker
22. Was given feedback on my speech that will stick with me for a long time
23. Was approached by people from my past
24. Was thanked by a mother and daughter for assisting the daughter in classes
25. Was contacted by someone I didn't think I would hear from ever again and have talked to them every day since
26. Was interviewed and hired to be the Marketing Coordinator at a nonprofit organization
27. Finished creating the new website for the museum I was interviewing at
28. Turned a four-page marketing plan into an eighteen-page marketing plan
29. Volunteered for a homeless count in my hometown and let my coworker know that I have been homeless twice in my life
30. Became an apprentice event and wedding planner
31. Went to a business after-hours event for my job alone
32. Volunteered for Vocational Bible School at a Lutheran church while being Agnostic
33. Working in a higher capacity at my tutoring job than I ever thought possible
34. Was given thank you cards just for doing my secretarial job and being knowledgeable
35. Have been thanked and praised by my coworkers at the nonprofit I work at where I strive to support them in any way I can because they are passionate about the cause

Among the listed things I attended classes, completed projects, worked regular hours at my jobs, and attended meetings as needed.

I never see the things I do as things that deserve to be praised, I just do things because they need to be done and I try to do them to the best of my abilities. Simply put I am just living my life to try to be the best that I can be at the end of the day.
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How do you do the things that you do?

Question #26: Who is your hero of fiction?

Growing up there is one movie, one story that stuck with me. Alice in Wonderland, to believe in the impossible until it becomes possible. Perseverance in its purest form, or a drug trip that went way too far. To me, this story has led me to where I am in life, I believe in the impossibilities of the world and that eventually, they may be possible. I grew up being encouraged to pursue the arts and being told that I am too pure and nice to do much else. I've proved those individuals wrong, I have made what they believe to be impossible for me to do possible. I am in the business world with both an accounting and marketing degree and in a high standing position within a nonprofit organization, right out of college, that does not mean though that I don't still enjoy art and everything that comes with it.

I know that throughout my life I will have people oppose my decisions in one form or another and I am fine with that because it'll give me the opportunity to prove them wrong, that I can do what they believe to be impossible of me. In my personal life, I am quiet allowing my eyes to watch those around me and observe what they are doing, I choose to sit in the background and see what others will do. In my professional life, I take center stage and become extroverted asserting my views and asking questions of those around me trying to raise up those around me. I keep work and personal separate, I leave work at work even if some of my pet projects may reflect on the place I work at it won't enter over into that realm fully.

I have known for a long time that I am a walking contradiction in most things that I do and I am okay with that because that is when you get the best reactions from those that are given the chance to see both sides. I believe I am similar to Alice in that way and that's why I hope to live like she does, believing in the impossible and making it possible. I will take life at my own pace and even if I may seem as if I am late, I am perfectly on time.
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Who is your hero of fiction?

Question #25: Who are your favorite writers?

I feel as if with each of these questions there is a common theme, that I like passionate people.

I read probably at least two to three hours a day usually more than that if time permits. I enjoy reading stories written by online authors on Wattpad, Archive of Our Own, Fanfiction.net, Toonmics, WebComics, Lezhin, Webtoon, and basically anything else I can get my hands on. If I were to choose one book though it would have to be Trickster's Choice by Tamora Pierce. In each piece that I read if I am no longer able to visibly see the passion that the author puts into their works I stop even if the story is still continuing, I stop. I need to be able to feel the excitement, the dread, all of the emotions that fill the author through each and every carefully selected word to create their stories otherwise I can't hold on, and I definitely cannot continue. I support passionate people in any way that I can and I feel as if I am able to see through the page into their souls and hearts because I can connect to others as one human to another. If a story gets put on hiatus for a long time and they come back even if it's five years or later I will continue to read as long as I can still connect to them and feel their passion. I love reading and everything that comes with it.

My favorite writers are those that are passionate.
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Who are your favorite writers?

Question #24: What do you most value in your friends?

One defining thing about my friends is that each and every single one is honestly unapologetically themselves. They're all chasing their dreams and working towards something that they want to honestly do with their lives.

I look to them for inspiration because to me each and every single one of the people I call a friend is inspirational. They live their lives for themselves and their dreams, they're passionate and honest. They go forward in life with each and every single thing that they do. They're advocates for causes that matter to them. If I were to describe each one to you I would tell you their names because honestly you really need to find out from them just who they are. None of them have just settled for mediocre.

I believe each of my friends to be able to do anything they put their minds to. I most value the individuality that my friends have and how none of them are the same.
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What do you most value in your friends?

Question #23: What is your most marked characteristic?

Something that I have heard lately is that I am confident, that I hold myself with confidence in the things that I do. I don't see it this way.

My mother's boyfriend was driving me around one day to complete a few tasks and he mentioned that I am confident and that is the number one defining characteristic of me. I see myself as someone who just does things. I do things to get things done. The way I describe my technology skills is that I know how to press buttons correctly. I can put my mind to do something and get it done as long as I am truly passionate about it. I don't think of myself in any other way than just being myself.

One day I was with my mother grocery shopping and this elderly lady came up to me and complimented me on my hair saying that the way I pulled it off so confidently made her want to get her hair done just like mine. I don't have a conventional haircut for the area that I live in at least, not for my gender. I thanked her after my surprise had worn off from being approached like that as it seems that whenever I am around elderly women they tend to compliment my hair, perhaps because I have a resting face where I don't really smile or perhaps they truly like it. I've thought on it but again I just cut my hair the way I do because it's what I do. I am just me.

If I were to say my most marked characteristic I would say that I am me. I have had friends and family attribute my actions to just being me or while describing me to others they would just tell them that I am my own individual. I pride myself in being myself, in living my life the way I do, in just doing things for the sake of doing them. I encourage others to do what is going to make them happy in life, to be the person that they truly want to be.
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What is your most marked characteristic?

Question #22: What is your favorite occupation?

Throughout my life, I have been given the opportunity to look into a menagerie of occupations and throughout my time I have become enamored with each and every single one. The reasoning behind this though is probably because I found and watched passionate people in each.

The occupation I hold now after earning my Associate of Science in Marketing is that of the Marketing Coordinator at a nonprofit organization promoting the chasing of dreams through increased literacy. I am known as the Marketer and Public Relations person at the organization and with my knowledge and Associate of Science in Accounting I am likely to soon hold the Accountant position also. I am the avid supporter of those who create the learning environment needed by community members that come to us in search of help in their literacy dreams and I complete my tasks to give them the appearance that will best assist them in enabling the growth of others. This occupation is my favorite as I am able to support those who wish to learn while utilizing the skills I have worked so hard to gain. I work with a team of people who support others and believe in a cause and do so passionately. You don't go into a nonprofit looking to make money, you go into a nonprofit to make a difference no matter how small it is.

My favorite occupation is I believe one of my own creation, my favorite occupation is being me in every capacity. I take it very seriously, as I am a volunteer, an event and wedding planner's apprentice, a cleaner, a marketer, an accountant, a public relations officer, an advocate for learning, a tutor, a secretary, a freelance designer, a blogger, an artist, a character designer, a writer, and most importantly I am me. Live the life you want to and be the best you, you can be in whatever capacity that is. Personally, I am here to make a difference in other's lives to give them the opportunities to be the best they can be. Be passionate in what you do and pursue it and if people tell you that you won't be able to make it, just prove them wrong, that's what I have been doing all my life. People will make assumptions and you need to learn to ignore them and live life the way you believe is best for you. Respect those around you and support those that are passionate about the things that they do.
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What is your favorite occupation?

Question #21: What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?

Misery for me is being belittled for something that I tried my hardest to do. Misery for me is having others who don't try to foremost understand belittle me for not trying when it was my time to give up and move on.

Every other weekend I am tasked with cleaning my father's mother's home with my mother. To explain why I refer to her as such is that my mother and father have been separated since I was five months old. My father has taken to a habit of bad behavior acting as if the world is out to get him in one fashion or another and likes to cut off communication with family members who he believes have turned against him. The first time he ventured off on a bout of self-pity, he even cut off communication with me, his child at a time in my life which was crucial to my emotional development. His mother was never informed of the time I was stalked which was also the time he disappeared first. This lack of knowledge and her own self-loathing has led her to accuse me of not trying to communicate with my father this time when he is a full-fledged adult in his late 40's and I am a full-fledged adult in my early 20's we each are able to make our own decisions and they should be respected at face value. His mother does not see it in that way and has accused me of a lack of trying, yet she does not accuse him of such. She belittles my decisions to be a self-sufficient individual that does not need the negativity of my father in my life and that is something that causes my deepest, lowest depth of misery. Remember that communication is a two-way street and if one is not trying it can be a fruitless effort that could be better used doing something else, such as building on oneself as a person. The only one you will ever be able to control is yourself and that is something that not all have realized just yet.

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What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?