Question #8: What do you most dislike about your appearance?

The following is what appearance is defined as by the Merriam-Webster Dictionary.

Appearance: Option 1a: external show Option 1b: outward aspect Option 1c: outward indication

What do you most dislike about your appearance?

This one is plain and simple, my butt. In my family, we are well endowed in that area, I've determined it to be genetic, although perhaps I am just not working hard enough to get rid of it. Having a large butt has been popularized in media and the only thing I wish is that mine would be smaller. My butt is so large that it earned its own nickname from my friends in high school they refer to it as 'the shelf'. My butt got that nickname because my friends spotted me in the library, where I was bent over choosing books out to check out and read, by my butt and called out that nickname. Having such a large butt has caused problems for me though.

I can't stand up straight unless I put all my weight on one leg while having the other one bent, which starts to hurt after a while. I've also been called out by a teacher for standing with 'duck butt' and when I tried standing where I was standing straight she would give me dirty looks until I went back to having my legs straight while standing, essentially making it where I couldn't do anything right for my posture. Laying down flat on my back is near impossible and if I lay on my back for too long it can cause my lower back to start to hurt, as my butt leaves about a 4 to 6-inch gap between my lower back and the floor. Trying to find jeans is torture unless they have stretch to them and I have found that any jeans that have stretch to them tend to fall apart far sooner than ones that have little to no stretch. The same goes for dress pants and I have actually been called out for being supposedly obscene while wearing dress pants because of the way they stretched over my butt, then when I get ones that don't stretch over my butt I get told I can't wear them because they are ill-fitting in other places. This has led me to want to find ways to get rid of it, without paying to get it removed through plastic surgery.

In July of this past year, I had made the decision to cut out all processed sugars, dairy, bread, and pasta from my life I was able to maintain it for 4 weeks. It was hard at first trying to find stuff to eat and fulfilling any sugar cravings I had, then it got easier and more time consuming. As soon as the school year started again I knew I wouldn't be able to maintain it as I wouldn't have the time to do it properly. I haven't been able to start it up again yet and I plan to do it again as soon as I graduate in May. I miss the feeling it gave me, I felt healthy and energetic and happy. I also lost about 15 pounds during that short time that I was fulfilling that lifestyle change. I also was able to explore cooking and utilizing spices to make everything taste that much better. I learned to love honey which I previously had hated and it became my daily routine to have at least one cup of jasmine green tea with two tablespoons of honey as my treat at the end of the day. My butt is my most disliked part of my appearance and I have a plan to improve my view on it through hard work and dedication.
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What do you most dislike about your appearance?